I was at JIB4 & now I understood: COCKLES IS REAL AND NOTHING HURTS! Here is my story)
Warning: this post is for Cockles-lovers only – for those of them who believe ) The rest may go home. I saw it with my own eyes that Cockles is real and I don’t care if anyone thinks otherwise. If someone simply told me about it I would shrug my shoulders too, but I’m used to believe my own eyes and my gut feeling.
As for now I’m sorting through my photo-video-impressions, but I feel an obligation to write about the Cockles that I witnessed)
It was on the last day of Jibcon, about 40 minutes before Misha and Jensen’s panel. By that time I was through with autographs and photo-ops and I decided to accompany my friend E-Katy to her Misha’s autograph – I just wanted to take an extra look at this wonderful man.
We come to the autograph room, E-Katy takes her place in the line, and I’m standing right beside Fantasmagory who is there just for the same purpose as myself. The staff ask us why we are not in the line and I explain that we’re here with a girl who doesn’t speak English, so we’re going to interpret for her.
At this very moment Jensen, who is at the table nearby, finishes with his autographs, gets up together with Daniela and heads for Misha’s table. E-Katy has already taken Misha’s autograph, and an Italian girl gets out a huge book to be signed and puts it on the table in front of Misha. The three of us are huddled together in about 2 meters from the table beside several demons who are queued towards Misha. So we have a perfect vantage point ) Actually we weren’t waiting for anything, we just wanted to drool at those two together, and as for myself, I thought Jens was about to walk past Misha behind his back and turn into the meet-and-greet room.
So Jens approaches Misha from behind, leans heavily with his chest on Misha’s back and covers Misha’s hands with his own, you know like someone’s sitting and you’re hugging them from behind. We’re like, WTF? – it’s all happening in a couple meters from us… Then Jensen takes the marker out of Misha’s hand, still lying on top of him with all his weight and almost pressing Misha into the table – Misha even said “ouch”! – so obviously Jens was very heavy on him Jensen signs the book, still squishing Misha down with his body, then he rises a little, digs his nose into Misha’s hair and draws it like that from side to side a couple of times, rubbing his face against Misha’s hair. Our jaws are dropping, eyes basically popping out, and our feet seem frozen to the floor. The Italian girl who also sees all of it – by the look on her face, she’s feeling much the same as us – wide-eyed, mouth open. She’s looking round her, obviously in search of her friend. The demons are in the line, they’re puffing at each other’s napes so they cannot see any of this. As a result, only five people are the witnesses – the three of us and the two Italian girls in front of the table.
Jensen goes on with his caresses. I guess he wrote something funny in the book, or he simply wanted to apologize for snatching the marker from Misha’s hand. Holding Misha’s chin with one hand, Jens presses his cheek against Misha’s. Like, sorry, I’m so sorry!.. Then Jens backs off a little, making a step back, and Misha’s looking up at him. Then they smile simultaneously, and Jens has those crinkles around his eyes, he’s literally shining. Misha’s also shining, and we’re almost swept off by the affection and tenderness in their eyes. For about half a minute they’re just looking into each other’s eyes, and, as they say, the whole world has stopped around them and only they two exist.
Very meaningful glances, so much intimacy. They didn’t give a damn about us, about the staff and the Universe in general. There were literally hearts in their eyes.
It couldn’t be rendered in words, even in a video – all that chemistry between them, all that affection OMG!
Then Jens turns off, still smiling, and he’s shining like a new dime when he and Daniela walk past us towards the exit (i.e., he hasn’t been going to the meet-and-greet room, he’s come up to Misha on purpose! Misha’s table wasn’t on his way; he turned to Misha because he just couldn’t miss the opportunity!). And Misha lowers his eyes with a smile and starts signing the book.
And here our shame begins as we’re just done.
We three turn back like we’re one, then make something that can be described as three awkward steps and then we just hurl out of the room (i.e., Misha can see us and he’s perfectly aware why this three morons are clattering on their high-heels. We stop only in the hall, look at each other and then SQUEE!!! (Which of course can be heard from the autograph-room).The staff are gaping at us like we’re lost our minds. E-Katy and I, we realize that we must relate all of this to Swoon. And we must do it ASAP.
Then I had a chance to learn from my own experience what Motor ass means. We (still in high-heels) rattle to the panel room, and stuff open the doors for us (usually they ask to show them the pass). We rush into the room, run to our places where we land and start yelping into Swoon’s ear, “Swoonie, Swoonie! There’s Cockles there!” But she’s meditating at Brock’s panel, so she hisses back, “Hush!” We again, “Swoonie, Swoonie!” She, “So what do you have there, Cockles? What Cockles? Here’s Brock”. And she turns off, totally indifferent.
You know, it’s rather inconvenient, impossible even to sit quiet when one has a burr under one’s saddle.
So, as soon as we understand that Swoonie is a lost case, we take off and head for the exit again, fly out the doors (poor staff) and just run with no aim, for the sake of running. On our way we meet the girls from the groop Vkontakte, then Kid and Giovedi, and then Winchester. We tell everyone everything that happened (shouting and squee-ing applied), then we rush to the room where I left my phone to charge. We dial up Kim_lm and RED, squee and demand that they write some entries in their blogs right away.
All in all, I just didn’t expect that we, the three well-balanced grown-up women as we are, could be so bashed by the affection between two men.
It’s such a pity that using camera wasn’t a possibility – Daniela was standing right there and we would’ve been kicked from the room immediately. And it’s a pity that one cannot have tiny cameras inside one’s own eyes. It would’ve been a coming-out.
Do I have to add that Misha got the bracelet on his arm somewhere between the autograph room and the panel? And that Misha’s panel was delayed for twenty minutes? The staff were puttering about and shrugging their shoulders, and Matt on the scene had to entertain the audience as Cockles got stuck somewhere else.
I want to say that what I saw wasn’t interaction between two friends, it was between two lovers.
Jensen has a crash on Misha – do not believe when someone says that Jens fends Misha off, that he’s cold to him and is being dismissive of him in general. Jensen adores him. And how is it possible not to love Misha? – Actually, he’s very nice, humble, self-conscious, very pleasant man – one can fall in love with him heels over head, especially a top like Jensen. BTW, Swoon officially asked to say for her that JENSEN IS A TOP and that she doesn’t doubt it now that she’s seen the way they interact with each other (as for me, I never had any doubt).
But what stunned us the most was that affection, that love that was streaming from them both while they were staring at each other.
All in all, COCKLES IS REAL AND NOTHING HURTS! And I’m not going to persuade those who don’t believe. I saw enough! Now I believe that Jared actually whispered to a fan that he knows about Cockles. And that he actually posted the photo with wine glasses, titling it “this is what you’ve been waiting for”. And many other things.
I’ll be updating this entry as all I’ve been capable of for now is this hectic report.